******************************************************************************
I was nervous and excited, finally alone with my first patron. I had never experienced pain in the ways I hoped he would give me and my mind raced with thoughts on what might happen.
He was in the middle of the room as I entered, watching me silently. I looked around the room as I stood there. Along the right wall was a large couch and a fireplace was set in the center wall, its roaring fire flickering shadows across the room. The left wall caught my breath and I stood in shocked silence staring at it.
I looked at that wall longer than I should have, I knew it, but before I could turn to face him, the back of his hand was across my face causing me to falter and take a step to the side. I had been too caught up in the sight before me to realize he had moved, my hand came to my face in surprise. “No whore stands in my presence.” He growled at me as he backhanded me again.
I dropped to my knees, lowering my head, tasting a hint of blood on my lip. My mouth hurt where he had struck me, my heart pounded in my chest and I felt a growing desire deep within my nether regions. This startled me more than anything. I knew the desires for pain had always been within me, but to experience it now and feel just how it excited me in ways I had never known was frightening and thrilling all at the same time.
“I am sorry, my lord.” I spoke softly, my voice wavering slightly.
He circled around looking at me, stalking me. His hand harshly grabbed my hair, yanking my head back, bending me against his knee. I swallowed hard as I stared up into his eyes, eyes that burned with animalistic desires. I risked a glance to the left wall and its decorations, I tried not to but it called to me. His hand quickly released my hair and found my throat a mere second later. I should have been terrified; I should have been except for the wave of pleasure that swept over me.
His hand clenched down on my throat, fingers finding the exact spot on my tender flesh that controlled just how much blood would flow through my veins and he pressed down on it. The world started to swim around me, darkness playing at the edges of my vision. With just a bit more pressure he could have my life taken from me and I could nothing but moan against the desires building within.
Perhaps it was that moan that showed him I was enjoying his actions, perhaps it was the strain of his erect cock against his pants causing him too much discomfort to ignore, whatever the reason, he released me with a shove. “Please me, slut.”
I did not have to be told twice, did not dare be told twice. I turned on my knees, licking my lips as I reached up to the top of his pants and began unfastening them. My body ached for his touch, my mouth watered at the sight of the thick hard flesh as it sprang from the cotton underpants as I carefully worked them down his hips. I licked at the tip of his erect manhood as his hand wretched at my hair again, shoving me down the length of him. I gagged slightly as he slipped down my throat and felt wetness between my legs as my mind gave into the pleasure.
I worked him until he came in my mouth, licking at him to retrieve each precious drop of his seed. As I pulled back to look up at him, he caught me again with a swift backhand, sending me falling to my side. “Do not think you are done yet. I paid good money for you and I plan on getting every cent worth.”
He pointed to the bed and I obediently rose, stripping my clothing as I walked towards it and lay down. He began removing his clothing as he walked towards me, the fire in his eyes growing with each step. He grew harder with each step until he was just as thick and long as before I sucked him. The fact he could be ready again in such short order was not something I was prepared for. I should have hated being used like this, should have resented the idea of it, but I could not deny the yearning within me that longed to be hurt and pleased.
He grabbed my legs, yanking me to the edge of the bed and slammed his full length into me without warning. I was wet and open to him, but not ready for the strength he possessed in that one thrust. I cried out in pain. He thrust harder, holding me against him as he pierced me over and over; each movement of his hips driving him deeper into me.
The pain gave over to satisfaction and he finally slammed himself deeper than before and filled me with his hot seed. I cried out again, this time it was his name as I gave in fully to his drive and released with him.
He stared down at me, his chest rising and falling with little effort as if he had merely taken a short walk. He looked over his shoulder at the wall and chills went down my spine. He pulled free from me and sat on the bed. “You know what I want now.”
“Yes, my lord.” I slid from the bed and walked over to the wooden X that stood against the left wall. At each end of the X was a leather strap to hold my limbs in place. Next to it was a small table with various instruments of recreation. I obediently stood against the wood as he secured my wrists and ankles spread eagle. The wood was rough and the feeling against my naked body caused me to shudder.
I have never experienced the pain he planned to bring to me, I was terrified. I knew that I just needed to speak my safe word to have it all end, I knew that I had to beg for his mercy and it would all be over. That is when the first lash of the flogger stung across my back. Dozens of sharp, stinging kisses across my skin. I knew at that point, I could not speak the word even if I wanted.
The lashes continued dozens of them perhaps, I do not know. My mind swam in a sea of pain, cresting on waves of pleasure as he continued his assault. I pleaded for him to allow me a rest, I begged for him to stop for just a few minutes. He did not.
I finally sagged in the restraints, my body spent from the pain. He did not allow rest even then. His fingers worked into my tender mound, deep and hard, curling to find the spot within me that sent me into another round of begging and pleading. Only this time it was for release, for permission to spill my juices over his hand. He did not grant that release either.
He returned to the flogger. My back burned with pain as if liquid fire had been poured down my flesh. Again, I cried out, begging him to stop, but I would not give my safe word; I did not want this to end, not like this.
The flogger stopped and I felt him step behind me, pressing his body against me. His breath was hot against my cheek as he spoke. “I paid for you, all of you, and I intend to have just that.”
I had not realized what he meant by this until I felt my cheeks spread and his hard cock pressed into my ass. I cried out again feeling me stretch further than I had ever been stretched before. He worked my anus with more force than he had my mound. I felt the searing pain as my muscles tensed against his onslaught of passion. His hips smacked against my ass cheeks hard as he yanked my head back, biting the side of my neck near to the point of drawing blood.
The two types of pain mixed beautifully within me and I began to beg for release once more. The tears streamed down my face as I pleaded with him to grant me permission to allow my climax to peak. Several more thrusts of his cock into my ass and he growled into my ear. “Now, whore!”
I came without regard for what was proper. I came without care of who might hear my screams. I came with a force that rocked my hips against his and milked him as he shot his hot seed into my ass.
He leaned against me, pressing me against the rough wood and kissed the bite on my neck gently before he began to unbuckle the restraints that held me. Knees weak from the experience, I nearly fell into his arms as he carefully laid me on the floor and called for his attendants to see me to my room and tend my needs.
This was my first experience with a sadist. Some say I am mad for allowing it to happen. They don’t understand the need within me that literally hurts without being granted the pain another inflicts on me. They don’t understand how that pain makes the most intense pleasure ever known. They don’t know what it is like to be a masochist, to be me.
I look forward to my next chance to visit.